Well, it's been awhile since I've written a real update, so here I go. Steve and I broke up and that has been really hard. I've moved into my own apartment, which I absolutely love. It's 2 bedrooms 1.5 baths. It's nice. Milo moved with me, by the way. I've also been talking to a guy online since last Feb. His name is Alex. He's younger than I am, but he's hilarious, cute, and a really great friend. He's listened to me and been there for me through everything with Steve. He's the first guy, since Steve, that I've felt the lil tinglies from. Tinglies feel nice again. He's one of the best people I know. He has a huge heart and he's honest. He's one of those guys that people can only write about in movies, yanno? The best friend who develops feelings for his best friend and things like that. Its just different with him. I dont know. He relaxes me. He calms me down. I've told him a million times that he's my gravity. When crap goes flying everywhere and I feel like the world spins around me and Im running to barely keep up, he comes along and stands me still. Then, I can get my footing and figure out what to do next. It sounds so stupid, but thats the way I feel.

Anyway, on to other things! Christmas is coming up. Meh, im not all in a Christmasy mood this year for some reason. Normally I have alla my crap done by now, but with me moving out into my own place has really drained any financial security I had. That's ok though, I have an amazing mother who is standing behind me ten billion percent. Not sure what I'd do without her. She's my everything. I just know that when life goes all crazy eyed on me, I can turn to her and she's there. Always. =)

I havent really talked to any of my friends lately either. Amanda didnt come to school this past quarter and she doesnt have a phone so I've not talked to her in months. Im not even sure if she'll be attending in the winter. Tomorrow I've got to go to the school and schedule my classes for this winter. Friday I've got to go pack the rest of my stuff and get what I can from the house. Steve and I are having the normal break up drama, but Im hoping it ends soon. Im not sure how much more of it I can take. I'll always love him and he knows that..and he throws guilt trips at me and I just can't take it. He can get me crying in 3 seconds flat and it frustrates me to death! But, c'est la vie. Life goes on and the only thing I can hope is that the new year brings me new people and hopefully a new healthy relationship. A relationship that is healthy for me. A relationship that makes me happy...genuinely happy. =)

Well, I guess I could introduce you to Alex. Here he is:

isnt he adorable?! Look at those blue eyes. He has black hair, btw. He's really tall too. *swoon* We'll see what happens...he calls me his angel, btw.  He's so great.

Ok guys, take care. I'll try to update sometime this weekend. Im not sure who reads this thing anymore, but leave me a lil note if you stop by!

Steve and I broke up. I got my own place.

Happiness = Alex. =)

Life is really, really good!

Happy Thanksgiving ya'll! I'll be updating again, no worries!